we tend to hurt people we love, but nice to strangers.

we treat people we love like shit, take them for granted, thinking that they wouldn't leave us or hurt us back because they are close to us and love us too, and they would just understand why we hurt them.

well, that is plain wrong.

time is ticking away.. time is running out.. everyday, every hour, every second....
whenever i see you, i know i never wanna be away from you..
and i hope the feeling's mutual.

i don't wanna waste any second i have with you.. the rest don't matter to me, there's nothing more interesting more indulging more moving than you.. i need no tv, no book, no internet, no ps3, no music, no nothing as long as u're by my side.


ur presence is everything i need.

yet, i don't think you even understand that.

i don't care if it's palembang, jakarta, bandung, surabaya, bali, jogja, singapore or hongkong, 5 stars hotel or a hostel, i don't care if there's cockroaches or no air conditioning, i really don't give a shit.. although i know you do cuz you're worried about my well being, but please trust me when i'm always gonna be alright.. as long as i'm with you.

i will ride any rollercoaster (with u)
i will stay at any crappy place (with u)
i will watch any horror movie (with u)
i will stop when u tell me to

do u understand the depth of my willingness?

This is the last day of holiday. In two days i'm gonna have to face reality..work and work and work. Shitty work.

So, there's really nothing to look forward to. Nuh, scratch that. I'm going to look for some things that i can look forward to... i need to do this. I need to find something exciting to keep me going forward. Like a project. A life project. Something.... maybe i can try to find a scholarship abroad? or find a more exciting place to work? or write a novel? or i don't know... i don't know what i wanna do with my life.

Whatever.. finding my life's passion is a lot harder. So, one baby step at a time..

Now, let's see what little things i can do to make my life has more meaning to live...

1. do sport regularly. swim. gym. anything.
2. do things spontaneously
3. stop being too serious !!!!!
4. enjoy life

So what if work sucks ??
So what if people are nosy ??
So what if i'm bored ??

Well, these are not the kind of list i wanted to make... but whatever.... i never did any resolutions i made. It's pointless to make one now... haha.

Gwads, i am just so bored with my life.

I wanna have a dog ! I wanna walk my dog ! I wanna bungee ! I wanna go on a vacation and have a blast ! I wanna stop stressing about my work ! I wanna stop worrying about life ! I just wanna have fun with my life ! I wanna stop explaining things to other people ! I wanna go skiing ! I wanna go beach walking ! I wanna be carefree !!

Dear Allah,

Thank YOU for all the blessings YOU've given me.

gosh................... im so tired.


=(((((((((((((((((((((

get me out of here please.....................

akhirnya gw mutasi !!!


ke... prioritas palembang arief.
shit.


tomorrow = manyun day at work.

Thought I couldn't breath without ya,
I'm inhalin'
You thought I couldn't see without ya,
perfect vision
You thought I couldn't last without ya,
but I'm lastin'
You thought that I would die without ya,
but I'm livin'
Thought that I would fail without ya,
but I'm on top
Thought that it would be over by now,
but it won't stop....
Thought that I would self destruct,
but I'm still here Even in my years to come,
I'm still gonna be here

I'm a survivor
I'm not gonna give up
I'm not gonna stop
I'm gonna work harder 

After all of the darkness and sadness
Still comes happiness
If I surround myself with positive things
I'll gain prosperity

Survivor - Destiny's Child

Z E R U D O N G
just trying to survive
nothing to fear

fulfilled
to be with family
to hug Dad one more time
great friends
kurosaki ichigo
cute heels